to be added this week to a kind of record each week added to: part VI
VI.
I am as I age wrestling with the idea of affirmation
a long death scene follows which I do not make up
when I return turn when I return the idea of a room
come on now they have his hands come on now rubber
fingers in mouth in arsehole inside a rummage sale of
public private interests like you when I return the idea
it’s not the first time you are dying and you have never
been disabled in my sight you have been old before you
before you have been a woman and you and have been
the child of a woman come on now like you I return turn
to at no instant where hesitation has a chance of being
being thrown by the who said the dark lady who said I
I have heard borne witness to grown men screaming
when
undergoing this procedure I climb in and out of bed
like you new angel angel new I cannot turn my eyes
away each thing returns at every instant I like you
heap up before myself
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